Friday, March 14, 2014

The V Day

Another boring and lonely V day is here. When all the people rejoice and celebrate with their loved ones, it’s yet another dry day for all the lonely hearts that’s either single or whose loved ones aren’t near.

This is the sad story of me too. A little bit of sadness and a little bit of loneliness crept in. there are lots of things running through my mind, so much I’d ever wanted to do but like every year, this valentine has nothing in store for me. It is going to be another sad and lonely day for me as well.
The weather’s gloomy and cold today, some call it a romantic day and some just complain of the cold. For me it isn’t any of it rather than just another boring day. I browse through the internet, sign in to my face book account. That’s how my day ends (face booking), going through the notifications, playing games, chatting, etc.

It’s a valentine’s day today, and as usual, there are many valentine wishes and dedications made to the loved ones, I somehow became envious. Lovers making confession of their love and feelings sounded sweet and romantic. I smiled as I read it all, made me miss the kind of feeling, wondering how happy one must feel when someone dedicates their life to them.

Every year I get excited on February 14th, knowing there’s nothing in for me, I still find the day special, after all it is love day and somewhere deep inside of us we have that special person we are in love with. I’ve always wanted my valentine day to be special, I’ve always wished someone could just make me feel special and love me unconditionally, but wishes and dreams just remain as it is. I guess I don’t have that kind of a fate to experience the happiness and love.

Though I love someone unconditionally and truly, yet distance has come as a barrier. We are so far apart, we hardly get to talk to each other and share our feelings together. This makes me sad sometimes. They say distance shouldn’t matter if two hearts are true to each other, but I don’t really agree to this statement. Our feelings and hearts may be true and faithful, but distance can shatter everything off. No matter how hard we try, we can never win against the roads of distance.

This Valentine’s Day’s brought in loneliness and sadness. While everyone else rejoiced and celebrated with their loved ones, I stayed back home, missing my love. Sometimes I just hate this feeling. Having to envy others and getting upset over small things, I find myself stupid. Yet I never lose faith in it. I rise and smile, because I know my time is yet to come, if not this time then maybe next time, but someday it sure will.

Each year, on the so called V Day, I pray my next Valentine’s Day to be a special one. I pray my love to be right next to me. I just pray I don’t have to feel this lonely and sad. This year is gone now, another lonely time has passed.
A sad, but positive goodbye to this Valentine’s Day 2014!!!!!

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  1. I've never been lonely. I've been in a room -- I've felt suicidal. I've been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all -- but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party, or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness. I'll quote Ibsen, "The strongest men are the most alone." I've never thought, "Well, some beautiful blonde will come in here and give me a job, and I'll feel good." No, that won't help. You know the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Friday night, what are you going to do? Just sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out there. It's stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidity themselves. I've never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. I hid in bars, because I didn't want to hide in misery. That's all. Sorry for all the millions, but I've never been lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of entertainment I have. Let's drink more ara!”

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    1. Wow...an awesome write up!!! Liked it and yes I agree with you..I don't find loneliness bothersome any more. Rather it gives me the opportunity to know myself more in depth....Thanks anyways.

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