“I
am longing for a good break from all the stress and work!!!”
Sometimes loaded with a lot of emotions and hassles
of life, I find myself suffering from anxiety. I don’t like going to my
workplace, I can’t concentrate on anything, and I feel drowsy and low.
I
have lost my zeal and enthusiasm to work. I find myself drowning into a deep
feeling of dejection. Though surrounded by a lot of people, so-called friends,
relatives, and colleagues I find myself lost in a world where there is nothing
but a never ending misery.
Negative
vibes out ran all the positivity inside me. I’ve started getting mad on
everything little things, I’ve started complaining a lot and of all I’ve
started wanting to run away far from the reach of everything.
I’m
afraid I may run into depression. I am just so sick of everything. All I need is
a little break. I want to go somewhere far, take a nap, where I can find the
peace and happiness I deserve.
Isn’t
there anyone to understand my plight? Isn’t there anyone to help me find my
share of happiness? Isn’t there a place where I can find peace?
My
dear beloved people, I don’t get mad for nothing. I just have so many things
stuffed inside of me. So many words unspoken; silences and agony rooted within.
At times I wonder if I can ever fight these emotions. Will I lose or will I win?
Sometimes I just don’t find the stamina to fight anything. I’ve just turned
lethargic, like a mere walking dead. I am tired! I am tired of my daily boring
life and it’s suffocating me.
I
am sleep deprived lately. No wonder I go drowsy and tired the whole day. My love
for social networking is long gone; I have many a times wanted to deactivate
all my accounts and cut all my connections. I have many a times wanted to lock
myself in a room and shout my heart out. Am I deprived of a free and good life?
Am I deprived of an independent life or am I just hallucinating everything?
I
just wish I could leave everything and run away afar. If granted a wish, I would
wish for a little time to find myself and my priorities. I would want to fight
this negative emotion that’s ruining my life.
Everything is drifting apart and I
am carried away by the thought of how my life is going to be hence. Will I conquer?
Or will I remain forever with this feeling of dejection?
How
do I find my mental peace and go back to being my old self? All of these are
but an enigma, a mystery I’m trying to unlock.
