So I pen this down,
The emotions that's been pricking my heart,
The feelings that's been haunting me through the night,
The silence I've been carrying inside.
I pen down everything that's made my heart so heavy I could barely breathe.
I pen down on the soaked up pillows and swollen eyes,
On the heart that cried itself to sleep every night,
On the lonely nights I've spent wishing you were near,
While you were out of my sight somewhere very far...
- Gayleg Dema
Dear Apa and Ama,
I realized I have not
thanked you enough for everything you did for the sake of my happiness and
securing my future. I have not thanked you enough for making me a strong and
independent lady that I am today.
Often, we forget that our
parents are aging with time and so is their emotions. We forget their
sacrifices and hardships and how they had to put up with our childish tantrums.
Maybe I was too young back then to understand and maybe I am too old now to
realize this, but I just want to say ‘Thank you’ for everything.
Kids grow up and settle
down. They are too busy raising their own, building their own family, and
amidst all these, they forget about their aging parents. Come to think of it,
how could they? Now that we are capable, it is time for us to be at their service,
fulfill their needs and understand that they need us more now than anything, of
course they would not express it aloud but we need to understand. It is our
moral responsibility.
Apa and Ama, if I give you
something out of love, do not feel guilty or bad, I am no stranger. It is my
way of expressing my love to you. It is my responsibility to take care of you and
fulfill your needs. You gave me good education, guided me through my rough
times and gave me everything I asked for, I shall forever be indebted to you.
Nothing in the world will be enough to repay your love and kindness. I cannot
run away from my responsibility in the name of living a separate life or raising
my own family. For me you will always be a priority just as I was yours.
Sometimes I may not be in
my right mind; I may make mistakes, but please forgive me. No matter how lost I
may be, I will eventually find my way back to you. I know, you know this, so
please keep the same faith in me, I will make you proud of me one day.
With love
Your Daughter
